Black Southern And Eccentrically Me

I can't believe how long its been since I touched this blog. Guess I've been too busy reading everyone else's thoughts. So many things have been going on this year that its just now settling in on me. Some of those things were major things and had I not got hit by OTHER major things then the first set of things could have floored me. Mind you, they weren't "terrible," just unexpected and slightly painful while others where par for the course. We picked up house and moved to another city about a month ago. We had lived in our little town and in our same little house, for almost 19 years. The house is now occupied by our daughter and her growing family. Hubby got a job promotion and was able to higher our 19 year old son. I am a bookseller at Barnes and Noble and we adopted a new dog. There is more in-between but it makes me dizzy just thinking about it all over again.

As I sit here watching my grandsons cannonball off of the sofa into their baby sister's playpen I am finding myself filled with mixed emotions. The unconditional love of grandmom "mom" and the young woman that lives within this 45 year old heart and the desire to follow all those dreams I have kept inside me. Things I want to do, stories I want to write, places I want to visit, etc... And while I don't feel that I'm on a time table, I do feel the need to jump start and DO something exciting with my life. I want to write and I want to travel and explore historic sites throughout the country. I want to do home improvement (like transforming my home to a country cottage). I want to visit my grands when they move away. I want to pack up and live in an RV and roam the country side with my husband. And I want to dive into my nook and my bookshelves and only come out for air!

UPDATE! I've been in the midst of some extremely trying times. What can I say? Life. It is what it is! Hubby, kids, grandkids, health, school, etc, etc, etc... I'm still not quite sure what direction I want to take this blog but I do know that I want to blog. I want to write but I can't zero in on what I want to blog about. This may well be my year of experimentation.  I have several ideas floating around in my brainsphere but nothing that I can just grab and say "YES! this is IT!!" So, I'll touch on this and that til I find the right fit. Feeling a little "all over the place" lately. Have you ever felt that way? I mean, I have these thoughts flitting hither and yon all in my head but I'm having the hardest time focusing on the act of latching on to a it much less developing it! I know I've got things to say and stuff to create but years of inactivity and discipline seem to have sapped my ability to go forth and act. I realized that ...