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| Little Bit of Heaven |
So Much, So Much, SO MUCH!
So many things I want to do but I'm learning to LEARN how to wait on what the Lord has planned for me. My daily prayer is...
Lord,
Guide my feet on the path you would have me to travel.
Guide my hands to do the work appointed to me
Guide my heart that I may feel the love of Jesus, compassion and mercy to others
Guide my mouth that I may speak words of encouragement, Truth and love
Guide my eyes that I may stay focused on YOU
Guide my ears that I may hear and obey Your words
Guide my head that I may always think on You and only You.
I start, I stop, I start and I stop. I want to write, then I stop and allow myself to be distracted. I'm seriously beginning to wonder if I have Adult ADHD. Or maybe its because I've spent so much of the past 20 years being the eyes, ears, mouth, hands and legs of my family. Starting and completing something that is simply for me has never been an accomplishment that I can brag about. Dinner, done, laundry, done, errands, done, housework, done. Working on family issues and relationships, playing mediator and facilitator, spousal encourage-r, mental health professional, lawyer, physician...I've done it all and while I wasn't always right, i was there and I saw it through to the end, good or bad.
Lord,
Guide my feet on the path you would have me to travel.
Guide my hands to do the work appointed to me
Guide my heart that I may feel the love of Jesus, compassion and mercy to others
Guide my mouth that I may speak words of encouragement, Truth and love
Guide my eyes that I may stay focused on YOU
Guide my ears that I may hear and obey Your words
Guide my head that I may always think on You and only You.
I start, I stop, I start and I stop. I want to write, then I stop and allow myself to be distracted. I'm seriously beginning to wonder if I have Adult ADHD. Or maybe its because I've spent so much of the past 20 years being the eyes, ears, mouth, hands and legs of my family. Starting and completing something that is simply for me has never been an accomplishment that I can brag about. Dinner, done, laundry, done, errands, done, housework, done. Working on family issues and relationships, playing mediator and facilitator, spousal encourage-r, mental health professional, lawyer, physician...I've done it all and while I wasn't always right, i was there and I saw it through to the end, good or bad.
Now, here I am, 48 and an empty-nester with a pretty piss poor track record of completing something that I've started for myself. I'm so conditioned to stop and drop what I'm doing in order to handle issues dealing with my dysfunctional family, that my dreams and desires have all but faded away. I'm pushing fifty and I'm still struggling to find my passion, my path, my purpose. I know that I'm supposed to do SOMETHING but I'm clueless. I want to write, can't focus, want to crochet, can't focus, want to travel, that pesky financial thing, I want to create, but WHAT?! See my predicament? What's a soon to be middle aged granny to do with the rest of her life?
I don't have a clue but I DO plan on having a hell of a lot of fun looking!!! Join me on my journey of discovery while I talk about everything, explore, learn, laugh and love. And you can keep me accountable!
When I can reconcile my prayer with how I live daily, I will know that my prayer is more than words but the way I live my life.
I don't have a clue but I DO plan on having a hell of a lot of fun looking!!! Join me on my journey of discovery while I talk about everything, explore, learn, laugh and love. And you can keep me accountable!
When I can reconcile my prayer with how I live daily, I will know that my prayer is more than words but the way I live my life.
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